Not all dreams are made of Gold

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For a long time I had dreamt of going to England and other near places and believed that it would be the place for me and I when the time came for me to go I realized that it wasn't everything I had imagened. I had the experience that I needed to have but not the one I wanted.
I couldn't connect with the weather, the food and most of the places I visited, not because they where bad but cause they where different to what I wanted. 
I traveled there not to find myself but to escape from things of my every day life, believing that in doing so I would be happier, but my issues came with me and by the time I realised of that I was missing home like crazy and in top of my old issues I had new ones. 

It took me a lot of time to talk about that experience without bitterness and regret, but now that some years have passed looking back I'm so happy that I went foward with that and took it. 

-Tate-

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